you can put the blame on me_*

and so the days creep by, bringing new troubles and joys. he's always there, smiling and looking into your eyes. you know everything's going to be alright. you know he'll never leave you. even if he does, his love shall forever remain deep within your heart. first love is eternal.

i can't imagine what i'll be like if i'd just to be your friend.

i don't want to imagine.

it won't be the same.

you said all's fine. you had fun. everything's alright. don't worry. a smile. 

i'm still guilt-stricken. 

i'm sorry for all the harm i've caused. all the blood and tears shed. i'm sorry for embarrassing you. really am sorry. i never meant to harm you. i never want to. it's all just my damn fault. i should just disappear.