new chapter_*

This is just so annoying but i just have to keep it to myself. I have to focus on alevels and stop thinking of other things that will make me cry and divert my attention from my studies. Argh, if only things were that simple. I hate this feeling of worrying so much over something i don't have to worry about. I hate caring about something that i don't have to care about but i just can't stop it. I hate thinking about something that i don't have to think about at all. Yoda, can you please pass me some of your force? I need it terribly. Sigh, why must I see the t of you almost everyday, why cant the t of you just disappear. I hate it. Why do i have to KEEP seeing things i DON'T want to see. ignorance is bliss. I shouldn't look around too much and i shouldn't bother. Nothing exists. 

if only focusing solely on alevels was that easy.

at least there are others who actually care. thanks you guys, means alot. keeps me going.

moving on,

alevels can be my new boyfriend. we need to go on many dates and i have to learn how to love "him" more.

I'm sitting here all by myself
just trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did

I'm sitting here trying to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own
I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight

I'm sitting here trying to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

Sentosa outing with O1 Facils was great. Thanks guys for coming and making this possible (: another cj facil outing! maybe with O2 facils now? BTW I FINISHED A CARLS JUNIOR MEAL FOR THE FIRST TIME. AND I WAS STILL HUNGRY AFTER THAT. WOOHOO GO ME.

the cuts and bruises don't hurt one bit,
cause my heart hurts more than anything else.